REMARKABLE

warning : Dey it New Year

Finally we in the end of the last 2010, a lot of us celebrating this day as a beginning of new calendar again, the 1st January. scientifically this day is a where the earth completed a cycle around the sun.

In past 3 year, New year eve to me is something special. Last year , i was a party boy, where me and my friend celebrated this day at clubbing, BBQ party, and enjoyed firework. I can say that time was  i started to enjoyed my life. Had a salary better than before, even though it still not luxury  yet , but I had  budget  to do what i wanna do. A year before that was a bit gloomy, where i still at MHS,   watched TV with family and saw  firework from my room window. That time i don’t have anything extra due to my salary was sufficient for me to live only.Comparing past 2 years, and where i am now, i feel bless.This new year eve  is a bit different, even though i am not Miri anymore but I still close with my friend there. I receive a lot of sms  from them and i had a new friend here at KL to celebrate.

I am not a fan of resolution, target or ambition toward next year. I don’t really think about it. What interest me is to see my flashback and see where i am right now. On 2009, i am wild, where my curiosity was way beyond normal. Working with ah Long, rumble with other gang , moped and many more. That time i really embracing living on the wild side and experience everything. 2010 is a bit low profile, where i become nerd, otaku or geek. My passion is my hobby and my hobby is spending my quality time, taking picture, watching anime and jdrama, and playing with my gadget.Well 2011 who know what i will be. I do not really bother about it, because i believe to live in the moment, not for future OR for past.

So happy new year guys, we don’t need to set new wish or objective.. What we need is to make everyday in our life is REMARKABLE. The more we live , the more experience and better we is. We are wiser enough to decide what we want to do in day-to-day basis.

Damn… just realize i am otaku ….

p/s: heeeehaaaaw

I guess it same

Warning : reblog

Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you

source : polaris from /k/

 

p/s : still thinking about my resolution and still yawn

Studio session..

warning : i am noob

 

 

 

p/s : some of it already update on flickr..

reborn

warning : lesson of life

it funny i am rawker attached with this also..lulz faceplam

 

Hum let just say i feel a bit weird just now. Have you guys cry before? i bet you we all does for some reason, happy , sad, touching or angry sometimes. My point is not about cry baby or ” congek ” dalam bahasa Sarawak.I just mull over to see what the secret behind tears, and i just need to found of something when i bethink about it.
Tears is something like confess, to show honestly and purity on what your saying or act to someone. We dont know what will happen after we cry, conclusion is unseen. But it lighten our burden a bit rather pretend to be tough. Tears is not sign of weakness, it a sign of humble and grateful. A rejuvenation perhaps.

Ok enough saying about cry, haha i dont know how this topic stuck on my mind in the first place. For me this tears is one of the precious thing given by god as a sign we are human and alive. Every tears is a lesson of life and the reason behind tears is something unforgettable. Because god made it occurs in special occasion only.

There is quotes saying ” when you feel a bit lost or looking for answer, try walking instead of driving. Then you will learn something around you”. It teach me too many thing. It teach me how precious my family and people around me before i realize it is too late, there is no losing before your fighting, thinking your own sake by do what you wish to do, understand people around you, understand how to like someone, understand to express you feeling, understand that you not alone, and understand about your dream .

image courtesy of google

I guess to much too understand huh.. but this thing will make you shine like firebugs at night . Small and bright

I just wanna share what i had learn tonight. I’ m writing it because i always forgot. We all should do, because we human cant remember everything..:)

Wakataaaa ( in japan it means i understand)

Yokata.. ( i feel relief)

P/s : 😉 <- sad or happy you guy guess

i dont know what on my mind

warning : empty head ahead

It time to write  something on my blog, I dont know what is it. I just trust my mind to speak unconsciously . Honestly i dont know what should i write.

I have a lot o gift this christmas.. feel bless:D

Thank god last friday, we all go back early. Despite going for sightseeing afterwork, i decide to go straight home because i dont want to be stuck at monorail during peak hours later. Then i got a called from Joanna , one of my friend here at KL. She wanna me to meet her at Bukit Bintang to gift me a christmas present. More precise she just want to reply back a present i give to her 4 days a go. Well thanks Joana, i dont really expect to get Christmas present. I spend all my weekend watching J drama gift by her for whole weekend.
Then last night is a bit troublesome, my neighbour just crying all night long  and it really pissed  me off. Twice i knocked her door  ask her to slow down the voice but still no effect. So i just spin my music out loud to avoid hearing her crying till 3 am. So this morning i just found out she already move. Thank god, if i had a wish for this Christmas, i would like to have a sexy hot neighbours that pleased me.. hey hey hey hey .. my imagination so filthy whore .. or well.. Santa doesnt exist right? hihiih

i love this pic, hard to find old tree like this in KL

So today morning , i went  for a walk nearby my place to shoot a picture. Nothing interest me, but i managed to shoot some tree pic .

This girl had a soother voice

And right now, i just experiencing having an illusion that i just occurred before, like during your childhood. I suddenly thought at this time during my flashback, i normally sitting with my gf, talking something sweet and romantic at the park or bringing my niece to the field playing a kite. I dont know if i can say it dejavu or reminicence experience. Try listening to the radio that play old skool song and start contemplating, you feel what i feel right now But hey,,, look at me now, sitting infront of my lappy typing something with no moral on it.

Mika Nakashima in conceited detective soo kawai, i fall in love in her

As for my facial expression, i just realize my hair just become fluffy and it time to get my hair cut. Hair cut in KL is not cheap, hard to find barber instead of saloon arround. I normally spend almost RM50 plus for a haircuts. With a hairstylist  for sure it will become hundred sigh. Talking about hair there is something make me turn on after i watch j drama last night. I just love girl with red hair, it kind a rawk, kawai, and unique.. I make my  heart beat faster and my adrenaline pump like a dynamite

source : anon tumblr

Ok i wanna i give a tech tips to you guy, i think this is my obligation and responsible to share this for you. Try to hide your email facebook on your profile because it is dangerous. Imagine your facebook account link to another account like twitter, blog  or your email. Facebook can easily be hack due to low security applies, same like HO :P. The simplest thing i can do it take over your facebook account  become mine, and post something embarrassing about you in it. But i am not a cracker,, so please , hide your email facebook as private for your own see only.

Well i hope that all. I dont know what i wanna do next, except listening  to V radio, hearing political speech and dj playing oldiest song . Hum, i feel a bit empty now.. maybe i should continue to watch J drama then.

Ok have a nice sunday evening

again fall in love with her voice also

p/s : Bonjovi always and yuki no hana 😀
: i am old already to emo emo hemo hemo.. -_-**

Life is peachy

Warning : Finally able to upload some pic.. IE rocks!

 

For whoever that celebrate christmas, i wish you guys merry x mass and happy new year. For those whose not, just enjoy the celebration like me:). Honestly, i just feel lucky that i surrounding with all races of friend, so i enjoy every moment which ever my friend celebrate. I can’t deny that i been bless with all friend i had. 😀
Let me share you guys what happens today. My boss, Mr Jedi was arranged company christmas lunch held in Japaneese restaurant at KLCC before he going for christmas holiday. So he just booked private table for all of us. The food was good, i ordered Malaysia Maki, Malaysia rolled style sushi, with manggo core and chili pour top of it.
We always eat that place, but as today, the special occasion is a christmas lunch. Wearing his santa hat distribute a present for all of us . Honestly i dont expect anything  except for lunch treat. But Jedi is man with alot of suprises, a good one indeed. What suprises me most is when he gave all of us the christmas card with a picture taken by me. I just a noob, i am not pro shoot beautiful picture yet. It start 3 day ago when we just out for lunch. He ask me , what i am doing during in the weekend, and i told him that i just playing with my camera and taking picture of my toys. So he want to see the pic i take and i just gave him my flickr link to him . And today i just found out that he using my picture making a christmas card! I just feel touch and appreciated 😀

This will be, one of the best highlight for December. I feel there still something sweet that i can remember before move to 2011. I  been surrounding by  brilliant, fun, and enthusiastic people that i ever meet. But sadly one of my co-worker will leaving us soon because  he want a start his own new project. But there will be new faces coming in and like i said before, jedi is very good in selecting people.
For me, what we need in work is to enjoy and embrace it. Boss that care of his staff, co-worker that we love to work with and be given an oppertunity to growh further. Right know, instead doing QA and debugging, i just had my own project  designing new page for Heli Office. A welcome challenge to me.
Lastly, who need postion in work? You may called your post is engineer or manager but living in stress environment. You may called you a officer but you really hate what you do. It just better to say i am a geek and i love what i do right now because what i care is my contribution to the company been appreciated. People surrounding that always motivate me to become better and better. Yearly bonus is not that important, but a bit suprise from your boss to you, it is something unique and special

The end

P/s : idealess

Gift from Santa

Warning : 5 day before hohoho

Hi, dont get confused, it dont celebrate christmas but i really enjoy when everybody arround me anticipate this festive season. Well why dont kan, i need something cherish and happy that i can remember for this December. Seing christmas tree, people with red hats , and changing gift practice . It  just lighten me a bit 🙂

During this time, there is lot of sales that i enjoy most. Dont ask me, how much i spend for it. It is nonsence haha. Well i am trying to be happy back, otaku styles . The good thing is the shop is  giving me extra toy when i brought more than 3 item since i ones of their regular customer. Hohohoho thank you XL-Shop! :D. The night scenary around KL is marvelous, Most everywhere i see christmas tree light decorated along the town. I should upload picture to you all . Unlucky tonight is raining, so i will show you another time.
To update about my Jobs, we managed to kidnap one of my colleague at Miri to work with me. Hohoho maybe she only the girl working in our office surrounding with a geek that talk computer langugage almost every time. Hoho that must be interesting. For me, i really enjoy her company , so we both also talk each other with some sort code like ” bahasa sarawak” at work that nobody will understand, hohoho. Talking about female staff in future, i think there is high possibility we get female geek programmer joining us soon. That will be double double interesting . 2011 is so far very brightly good:D
Yea, as Mr Jedi said, we really need to expand more since there is alot need to be done. January, we will signing 2 more deal in south east asia. Looking of that, for sure there will be busy ahead for us. It good, means that we do something right from beginning.For cik buthurt , we all anticaped you in our team, we not descrimination gender, and we all aware about your whip and pizza treat punishment that scared our but off 🙂

1. We dont have any dress code, as long it not sexy we really dont care. Just for you info, our company is well known because of our dress .Even my bank is curios about that, they probably think i am working as a drug dealer LOL
2. Cool boss ever, ( Jedi want me to tell this). He always treat us lunch in luxurious places, Tokyo cuisine, steak house, and many more. I think we already go every restaurant around KLCC  because pf him. There is 2 team during lunch time, slacker or eaters group that normally go  out  lunch and diet group that stay at the office like our Russian mob. Most of the time  i am my Russian mob, since i hate walking looking for place to eat with others.
3. Party is best ever, especially when we accomplish something big. FYI Jedi already plan if everything going well, we may celebrate ourself at  Phuket or on the beach something.
4. We work hard and we party hard, but we have flexible working hour, sometime working on pagi2 butak. It just our responsible.
5. A lot of souvenir, there is a tradition, when someone going travel or vacation, their normally give a gift. I already had maple leave and maple paste from Canada, Taj Mahal from India, lucky charm from China and Key chain from Singapore.
6. We are transparent , open speaks, ideas and improvement
7. Well it sound ridiculous, We also had a bonus and OT.. how cool is that , we still discuss about that.
8. KL is fun, you may enjoy by your salary given, but dont overspending… LOL
9. KL doesn’t have beach, if you miss sea, try do like me, laying on the swimming pool
10. Last thing, You will work with me, the coolest person ever on the earth that beat Jedi 100 miles away..

Hehe

Ok that all, Jedi curious about my hobby taking picture and want me to email him a sample tonight. I dont have any pic yet, So i need to take picture of my Jack Skelington to impress him.. Well as long he teach me about DJ , hohoho GTG

P/s : I am recover myself..

11 days of hell

warning : I just hate December

reblog from anon tumblr

I really hate December, why? because i really fucking hate when people keep asking me about ambition. Well i dont, i just hope. The most hatred thing that make me wanna a punch people on the face is when i got involve chanting regarding achievement this years. Brag this brag that brag everything. I dont know why i should be in there in the first place. ” oh yea, hum, wah, nice “,my reaction when i hear something like that. In my mind…” it means You just f**** ass*. Not as i pissed when everyone keep talking about that, the truths is i just fucking jealous because i dont have any to be proud off this year.. That why i really want December to go away!

reblog from anon tumblr

 

When we think too much about people, we think we know the best for them. But we should remind ourself that we just dont know what the best for ourself by thinking people too much. So i decided, i will be on the darkside of this. It doesnt means i will be mean evil , maybe some like being transparent and straight on the face perhaps. My friend when she hear about this this replied” we cannot create relationship with ourself”. Yes agreed, but being solitary in own world is suit me. Just bare in mind thinking too much about people is just  waste less.  Mind you that we never been in anyone priority. Remember that

reblog from anon tumblr

Well hater always hate and their does. Well i dont have problem with that, as long they know why they hating me off. Not based on assumption that they think they know anything about me, but they just dont. Your statement label me must have a fact reason and rigid. Dont assume me talking about you , that is way off from what i thought. Again my word just between the line, you may think that you but it is not.  You  just make you feel hurt more compare to the person what i really means. I wish i can state the names, but if i do that, i will be not hatred  by everyone, just one person gonna hate me then. And that is not evil on what i want to be.

Well the truths is, family and best friend first, other friend second and friend of the friend is not important. There dont have mutual relationship with me.

January will be better.. or feb. Dey buthurt , i need you here ASAP so i can have my vacation ..

P/s :

• If December like other countries that have holiday season , for sure i dont say December is a hell
• Hey read the blog link, it called radical perspective after all

never assume, dont expect just hope

warning : foreveralone.jpg is enough. No picture

Hi, finally i have a time & ideas to write again, Yea i keep busy updating my tumblr till i forgot i have other page to update. Tumblr is kind a nice, but for serious topic and contemplating , i will update here.There is a lot happened in passed week, as my last update in this blog is on Monday. So Tuesday till Saturday, for sure something on my mind.
Have you heard about paradox? based on my understand , something that keep going in your mind, and you keep thinking and analyzing about whether is it right or wrong. The more you process it, the more confuse you is. The truth is there is no right or wrong situation. That why it called paradox. For me, sometime, i care too much with surrounding make me feel sorry and down about myself. I am contemplating too much and need a break. So, less caring about people, never assume, dont expect just hope and keep faith on what i am doing. So i rather to be on the darkside and selfish if required.OK enough about mind play, since i rely on my ” hope” sense. So i hope everything is feasible cool then.
When people called i am “stalker” or “pervert” that literally not my intention after all. People is kind a buthurt, especially when they assume too much. Assume her friend a stalker, assume her follower a stalker, and blindly saying me a stalker. I get it.. so no big issue for me. I just push my up right keyboard button name < Del>
So i do what you expect me want to do, no fuss ,just follow exactly what you means. So we on the air again, no attached with no common. So you can called you as a free if you want to. But the strange thing is why you keep talking about me with you friend after that? So what is that? i already forget about it but you still does. What your point actually ? sorry foreveralone world suit me. So dont hoping something that you assume and expect me to do first place to be forgotten.

Source: whyaretherenocoolurlsleft

So people, as long you try you entitled one ticket of hope..

Sorry if u guys not understand what i am writing, i just expressing about my self contradictory statement based on my logic. My opinion conflict with what i commonly believe happening surrounding me . I am not philosopher, i just had an enigma

p/s : You miss me so much because you demand other attention right? does it make you be called phony?

Happy day

warning : Today, find reasons to smile and reasons to laugh, and see if at the end of the day you can look back and say, “I had a good day

picture means nothing from Google  image

Look like Monday for me is not bad at all, everything working smooth and steady. Today job was nothing much , doing some approve & merge approve case.We all managed to solved almost 65% for pre release next update for this upcoming Friday. Then we can focus on another milestone for next week 😀
Today was a fun day, and i keep laughing all the time. Not laughing seeing programmer buthurt to fixing thing, It  just i really really enjoy my time online. I am keyboard warrior, my life depend almost 65 % on internet. So i keep laughing reading and response in a forum about silly thing. Damn, i bet you guys will feel that too when you see what we discuss.
The topic is very interesting, some sort like ” have you date girl different race” and “envy with some retard being surrounding by beautiful model, and the most sad part is buthurt about Marrion Counter marriage this weekend. Lolz. A lot of funny fact to discus after all.
So in term of discussion, i would like to share what we discuss in here, especially about dating people with different race. I am personally feel that why not? We all diverse, we all living under one roof and we understand each other. I am also friend with chinese girl, here. We go lunch together sometimes, watching movie and trolling each other. There is no issue about multi racial conflict when we believe transparency in society. We respect them as they respect ours. But when we discuss in term of relationship, there must some sensitive issue will taken place. That is fine to me, because relationship is based on sacrifice and understanding on the first place. Same like when we couple in same race.
There is common perception people had when it come to relationship with different race.One of the issue is definitely about religion or common believe. Something that hard to be tolerate especially from each family perhaps. This is a kind a setback for some of us, but again if there a will they must be a way right? Love is about sharing , and it include sharing trust and believe. Enough said ,you all can understand what my point is 😀
Ok , let talk about today trend, are we still in the place where we must date with the same race anymore? for my moms is yes, but looking for our background history, my great great grandpa is married with my Chinese great great grandma. So it happens along time ago, so right now the situation i believe still the same, but the perspective and influence is different. Too much watching TV or reading newspaper may lead to something that we all concern. More to thingy ” racist” perception . Hey i am not saying my mom that, what i say is generally thought of people. Like when you at the place where there is no mixing race occurs, I bet they will say that this is not right, illegal or forbidden. My cousins married with expatriate, and they live happy together, so why not malay, chinese, indian or other race cannot be together? as long we open to give and accept, also being responsible with if. I think it will work well.
The challenge or an obstacle must be tough, we cannot make all people surround understand, but love is like that is it? There is one pribahasa in malay sound like ” lautan api sanggup ku renang” haha. This is the time you prove that! :D. Like my Chinese friend said to me, try accept me and i will try to accept you, make me understand and i will understand more about you. That sweet… i thinks

It a big steps, but if it faith… so it is faith.. But whatever the decision , try consider opinion from surrounding also. Btw it just my 2 cent of opinion. I maybe wrong or i maybe right. no buthurt yea 😀

P/s : the end.. so close but yet so far
: Enjoy company by someone at dinner.