New office

p/s: tired

Today was really  tired, dealing with security during moving thing from old office, then been question again at new office , then cashier LRT, keep saying OKU OKU when i try buying ticket, what a stress .. sigh* that buthurt
Ok, New office is kind a luxiorious, it a penthouse actually turn into an office. And it is the top of the building, private balcony’s , private rooftop, gym, swimming pool,pantry, bla bla bla that not amaze my totally

 

1. The place is required me to use switch lrt, then climbing hill
2. Not really fan of LRT , because i am monorail frequent user
3. the place is crowded compare to previous
4. convenient store is farking expensive
5. UNIFI internet is slower than TIME

Will see.. keep my positive thought

 

 

my otaku house

just spam pictar about my new house but for temporary only, since i am looking for my own apartment next

Dangerous mind

warning : the marvelous bad day

Yes i am scared
yes i am angry
yes i am anxiety
yes i am down under

but i will not give up or run away with a problem. I will survive eventhough i die trying and defending

Never give up
p.s : ….

Blues

warning : 4 minute and 5 sec of heaven

Hi, sound like overreact or overstatement right? but well i am on blues mode. Not emo aa, emo is something that you depress about your life, but blues more toward fantasize something that your dream to be real.
Where should i start, it a almost 0300 Saturday morning and i still awake. Imagine something that hopefully appears to my dream when i sleep later.. Perplexing thought

This evening i have a long chat what with IKA in FB talking about how selfish and choosy i am when it come to relationship. Is it wrong? I am laughing and bluffing myself to hear that. I didn’t see any wrong there since i not pledge or declare serious relationship with any girl yet. My semut? nah.. it just friend date, more to frivolous / careless connection 🙂

Age ? I will be 29 this year soon and still not take seriously about my future yet. Do i need to? people surround says ‘ YES, i should. Really? they say at least now i should have serious relationship status since i already have stable job that can support someone else.. hmm *itching back-head*

Funny , frankly it is not my priority or concern now, but as a human or more precisely a bachelor yes i have my own personal preference like other bah. Not by tangkap muat or jodoh keluarga counter measure, I am that hopeless lol.. Of coz i am choosy because i deserve someone best for ever since despite i dunno what the definition of “best” person that suit me haha, but i have some thought of it as ;-

1) Stranger definitely! i want someone that totally dont know about me, so i can tell her piece by piece about me to her. So she will keep saying ” sugoi .. sugoi ” or cool when i brag about myself lulz
2) Simple and minimal, aaaaaa kind like not overdo with her appearance, Of coz la, she must have a her own style. But i prefer shortie division type with a volume on it hairstyle. ( that is what my hairstylist tellin me)
3) Had a casual personality and original.
4) other bla bla bla.. 6 sense chemistry

I guess it consider as a rare species eh?

Again , it just a blues.. nothing serious ya

P.s : semut i had were obnoxious but adorable.. brilliant type..
: 4 minute and 5 sec of heaven = something captivating i found in YouTube

: beach.. that what i need to  fantasize now …

weird vs silly

warning : miss you

I guess it hard to maintain 2 blog on the same time huh, i feel sorry for my WordPress. I really wanna write more on it , but hey i am to tired and busy for my work. Luckily i dint have 2 girlfriends. lol

I sent my pray to all Mirian about catastrophe raining season they had. Luckily my home is at the highland area, thanks for that tho. Feel a bit secure about my family there. But not for my toys, this evening i was forgot to close my room window before coming to work, When i back , all my toys scatered on the floor wet cause by thunderstorm. That hurt

Lastly .. my point of the day, what happen if the real men, i mean REAL MACHO MEN or ” Your are the men ” type saying something cute to the girl to impress her.. The word like , Ganbate, So adorable, sweet, Chaiyok, .. Hmm abit weird and off kind a.. * itching blackhead*

Me? I just Otaku type.. i dont really care coz i am silly

 

P/s: god bless miri

underpressure

warning : back to square one

Believe it or not i been diagnosed suffering an anxiety problem by doctor after 2 days unable to sleep at night. It is funny how my life progress for the time being. I been demoralize most of the time. Well life is hard, i always try to motivate and please myself by looking on the bright-side in every problem i faced previously. But now i can’t do it anymore. I am weak to be positive , a looser that doest care about cool or awesome . I am dispirited and i am not special either or unique.

Well.. i still try to be motivate… my target i 1 year.. will see

p/s : be simple , but try not to simpler more.. live life complex
: loooosaaah

mess

warning : stay up all night

Sigh* i dont know what happen to me today, i sleep around 0100 and suddenly woke up around 0530 and cant sleep afterward. What i do i laying on the bed waiting for my alarm clock rang 0715. My heart beat slowly , when i try to closed my eyes ,my brain start thinking something . I dont know either bad or god

So this morning called my mom, telling what i through and she sad just be careful, whatever the sign it is moms may said probably god want to give a direction . Perhaps i want to believe it, but as long my mom is happy, i will leave it where it be . Something bother my mind, and keep thinking someone… and my heart beat slowly and i dont know why

I just take my time to slow everything today… i read an article related and advise to write a list what bother me. Hum i will do it now. I want my cheers back

p/s : first time wrote during working
: what the different if heart beat slowly and heart beat faster sign?
: I am not in drug!

conventional tapi outspoken

warning : Thread in sarawak

Fail ! i cant.. i dunno what to start .. Shit bahasa sarawak is hard to write.. *pull hair , buthurt…

Do or die, so nekad juak mok tulis lam bahasa sawak. My hairstylist here at Derrick & Team Saloon is a local Miri boy, but phail kaka sawak with me. So most of the time, he talk BI, so no person can talk sawak here.
Ok , so objektif tek mok nulis pasal one of my friend, i use to call her sassy girl sebab nya  outspoken & do crazy thing when her get mad. Most of the time i think she mad when she talk to me, although it is not my fault. Even person sebelah nya piss her off, she still flame his anger to me. So dah biasa when get BUZZ by her during i online hearing nya merepak.
So , that why i called her sassy girl, if you dont know what sassy girl is about, try Google it. It a movie, about a crazy heroine. Well, i have to write good thing also about her before she more mad and hair flame. Jap feel blur, i cant remember anything wawawawa so i am suicide mode now kenak nya.. She the type, that i can say a conventional , most people look at her will say that “lemah lembut, tatasusila, and alim i guess, Yes she was. But nobody know when she mad, it was bizzare extremely scary… Her word can cut people throat. But most of the time, i think she will channel his anger toward me, ( mangsa keadaan). So when ever people pissed her off, beware.. you just book me a ticket to hell..

I know she will mad when she read this, i already offline my YM either my FB so i safe now.. dont know how long… but i can feel she  is sharpen her knives now, assuming me as a bento, kimbab or even sushi to cut off..

Here are the trailer

no ..no need

P/s : dey gud luck with your bento… hoho
: my sarawak is epic fail bahasa

Rendition

warning : 1# thread for 2011

My thought to comprehend that i am old. Still  I do silly thing  with it . Maybe people says are correct that i should behave more mature. Hum i guess i stuck to be otaku till i dies perhaps.

I just tired , tired of sleep deprivation that  i had, tired of thinking i am better despite  i am not, tired saying ohayooo every morning even though i feel like shit, tired to say ‘ it ok’ or ‘ no problem’ although i  feel inferior about everything.I really hope people feel the same when they exhausted. So they can understand what i go through.

I always listening to Pachelbel- Canon  in D when i feel this shit.  Frankly i think  this is  song from heaven. Where i  just need to close my eyes and this soothing sound will lead me to the place that serene and rendering. I always believe  that Pachelbel just  create  this song with no lyric to make listeners  interpreting it  by their own .This is  the music  that  had a subjective or abstract interpretation in many way to people attached.

This  song that make me feel alive. Every section by section in this  music  define  every chapter of climax and surface of my life stage by  generates tears and goosebumps. So when i feel down, this song will bring me back to the right direction. Well this is my merely retropect about it  and different with others, where i see this song telling me  that, when your love ones need 100 roses , just give her 200, when ever your friend fight 300% for you, you just need to fight 400% for her back, and when your mom saying that she love you very much and you just need to  give her the love  with infinite much!

This is masterpiece, which whatever you  interpret it, the meaning still make  sense

P/s : night xoxo gambateh ! i need to feel relax now

: miracle do exist.. trust me!

: i dont want to act cool anymore