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Huarghhh.. lamak dah sik update blog, korang maybe thinks that i have no love with blogging anymore kan? No no no, blogging still my passion something yg perlu dilakukan ( walaupun dalam keadaan busy at the moment). Banyak benda mok dicerita, but there also alot need to be silent for. Doesnt means that i am changing, but i just want to write something yang i think worth to share. Some kind of filtering la konon heh.
1 -2 month tok, some of my friend called me i am in anggol mood. Yea since i am active in bergerek again. But honestly i am experiement with my own relationship. Torang may think that i am playing with people feeling here, giving a girl hope, say something yang bertaman bunga but not sure you really means it. Kasanova? . I am not sure with it.
I just want to know what love is feel, tangible, awesome, and what is? I am still blind with this relationship,. Sik tauk kenak it kind like you want to have your girlfriend to be your bestfriend but at the same time you dont want to be caught as friendzone with her. Complicated kan? freethinker huh?
Ntahlah, secara jujuruly ,,(word baru) i see that mun ktk bergerek, kita more to care what partner kita will feel, so kita try to be understanding as we can. Contohnya, when her tell something that kita rasa sik ngam kita try to be open and accept it. If you dont want to share something that you rasa it will jeapordize the relationship, we intend to say ” rahsiaaa sik bley padah” and she just said “hum ok ” then we changing the topic. So benda tok seperti we are avoiding you know. I want to tell her, but i dont know she will able to accept it , jadi benda is kind a atas angin, bercakap pasal good thing ajak2 padahal we hide our weeknest in the sake of love. Hypocrite kan?
Berbeza dengan friendzone, friendzone is where we share something in and out and we dont shy to talk about it. Because technically, we dont have any feeling toward each other. so we feel comfy, transparent, sadis ( some say) and be truly about yourself. When i tell my cousin that i want to have a girlfriend which is my friendzone , she just laughing at me. Why? she said that friend is different with you girlfriend. Now i feel that girlfriend is fake friend ..Sebab you cant share to her , sebab you dont want to hurt her.
That why if someone ask me, i will say that we still not offically GF and BF yet, Because i am looking forward to have our first argument, first merajuk, first kelaie, first sik bertegur something bad that will shape where the bond will lead. Sama ada we survived, we fail , or we become friendzone.
Someone advise me , biar masa menentukan , follow the flow , and dont think much about it. I cant , this is what i am . Saya seorang yang merely kepada kelogikan and kerealitian terhadap masa depan. I observe things and try to predict it based on this variable. Sebab saya jenis yang kuat berfikir dan berimaginasi ..
Maaf sekiranya saya mencarut d sini, but at least i rasa sedikit puass..
p/s ; korean love? cinta atas dasar sadis?